El Oh Vee Ee

Hi. I'm Laurissa. And I'm a hopeless romantic.

Often times I daydream about my future, and it always begins with my husband. Who will it be? What will he be like? etc, etc. And often times now, I see a boy fill that spot in my head. Which is weird, because he's my first boyfriend. But it's also not so very weird, because that has happened before, where a girl marries her first love or childhood sweetheart or whatever. But I feel so very blessed to have him as my boyfriend because when you get down to it, he's my best friend. And I think that's the best way to be in a relationship. Be best friends beforehand, otherwise, in my opinion, you don't have that close a bond as you would it you just liked each other and went out. My boyfriend and I went through all that, being friends, then realizing we like each other, then being friends with that awkward tension, then finally, I just said, "Screw it, I like you but if you don't like me, then we are going to be best friends." haha. And that's how it was for a while because despite the fact that he liked me back, he had a girlfriend at the time. But they broke up about a month later, and it still took him five more months to tell me he wanted to be with me. And since then, our friendship has gotten even better. I tell him basically everything, and we both like that because it means we trust each other. Trust is so important in a relationship because you can't build love on lies. And for me to be able to tell him some things that I have, that took a huge step on my part because I take forever to trust people, but with him, I just did.

So, I think our "connection" is a lot stronger than most couples' my age... but it's also a bit different because he's 17 almost 18. He knows what he wants in a girl, and hopefully I am that... you're probably scared that a 15 year old girl is talking about seriously considering marrying her first boyfriend, but sometimes when you have that feeling, it can be right. Especially as a Christian and thinking that... and God isn't giving me any signs that I shouldn't be thinking that... it's kind of cool.

Now there's just the trouble of, will he wait for me? I want to go to college. I want to live life a little, but I want to do that with him... but can he wait that long to marry? I pray that he can. And I pray that I can. So many times I've thought, "Meh, I don't need to go to college." But I think I do. And I want to. *sigh* The future is so unpredictable.

But I do know that I want to be with him in my future. I pray that he wants me in his, too. :]